I see the manipulation and how it domino effects everyone. I am miserable. I have no where to escape to or to share these thoughts without people replying with, “What can you do?” It’s out of your control", “Your wasting your time”, “Try to read a book or something different,be creative, get away from negative you cant control anything” , “Why do you care about other people and their choices so much?, “Why you so upset with everything?,Why dont you love yourself enough, to worry about you?, Doesnt “your boy” (YHVH) teach you to love yourself? I dnt think this God thing is working for you. Maybe you should try manifesting or something.”
Your a good mother and raised one amazing daughter with one more to go who is also amazing so why bother worrying so much when they are staying away from all that trash?”
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Also i have been avoiding doctors cause i am just not trusting. I do not want to see a counselor either. They all have no choice but to encourage the strange behaviors out there and like i said i cant stand the domino effect of it all. I have screwed myself into the below poverty level which does not help in certain ways. Very grateful for what i have especially my Girls one turning 20yrs, the other turning 11yrs,but i am not able to have much joy, maybe a few moments here and there… My partner is emotionally unavailble and not cool with YHVH which makea it worse, feeling like a dumb bi**h serving n loving someone who you cant trust anymore for more than one reason. Not even my Mom i can trust.
Im just done with being around anyone unless there is no choice. I know thats not good. Even sharing these thoughts i feel could be a problem somehow. My trust is warped. I do love and care about everyones soul so it sucks to come off as a grumpy crazy person cause no one wants to hear it.
Thank for awesome articles.
Also just so you know some how i can not get ro the original setting through google or chrome to get rid of my old photo of myself. I know last time i joined the older version of this siye, this photo automatically was placed just like this time around. I know on here i can probably can change it to an “E”,but man it annoys me that i cant just get rid of it for good. And my typing sucks also. I hate computer phones a
So much. Thank you for letting me vent.