I see the manipulation and how it domino effects everyone

I see the manipulation and how it domino effects everyone. I am miserable. I have no where to escape to or to share these thoughts without people replying with, “What can you do?” It’s out of your control", “Your wasting your time”, “Try to read a book or something different,be creative, get away from negative you cant control anything” , “Why do you care about other people and their choices so much?, “Why you so upset with everything?,Why dont you love yourself enough, to worry about you?, Doesnt “your boy” (YHVH) teach you to love yourself? I dnt think this God thing is working for you. Maybe you should try manifesting or something.”
Your a good mother and raised one amazing daughter with one more to go who is also amazing so why bother worrying so much when they are staying away from all that trash?”

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Also i have been avoiding doctors cause i am just not trusting. I do not want to see a counselor either. They all have no choice but to encourage the strange behaviors out there and like i said i cant stand the domino effect of it all. I have screwed myself into the below poverty level which does not help in certain ways. Very grateful for what i have especially my Girls one turning 20yrs, the other turning 11yrs,but i am not able to have much joy, maybe a few moments here and there… My partner is emotionally unavailble and not cool with YHVH which makea it worse, feeling like a dumb bi**h serving n loving someone who you cant trust anymore for more than one reason. Not even my Mom i can trust.
Im just done with being around anyone unless there is no choice. I know thats not good. Even sharing these thoughts i feel could be a problem somehow. My trust is warped. I do love and care about everyones soul so it sucks to come off as a grumpy crazy person cause no one wants to hear it.
Thank for awesome articles. :heart:
Also just so you know some how i can not get ro the original setting through google or chrome to get rid of my old photo of myself. I know last time i joined the older version of this siye, this photo automatically was placed just like this time around. I know on here i can probably can change it to an “E”,but man it annoys me that i cant just get rid of it for good. And my typing sucks also. I hate computer phones a
So much. Thank you for letting me vent.

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Hi Ericka and welcome!

All the questions you mentioned that people ask you are valid questions…

I don’t want to be so blunt but I think you do have trust issues and some form of depression. I know first hand what depression can do to someone. Its not healthy and I do pray you seek help somehow. I know you said you don’t want a doctor or a counselor but it just can’t keep going on like this.

Keep taking all your concerns to our Father daily. Vent to him too. :heart:

You know, I believe you can get through this. One, just by posting here and telling us, you are a brave woman. I’m not much for advice and I’m sure you don’t want to hear the same o answers…so I’ll just listen.

You are not alone, everyone has issues they need to deal with. But the one thing we can rest assure is that we can overcome the hard times because we have God on our side. I’ll leave you with a few encouraging verses. :hugs:

“When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:17-18)

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” (Isaiah 41:10)

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” (Deut. 31:8)


Ericka, welcome, thanks for joining us!

It’s sounds like you have a lot on your mind right now. I don’t know what you said to those people that triggered their responses, but there’s a familiar theme there. Correct me if I’m wrong or if you want to discuss, but it sounds like you’re letting the world get the best of you.

If that’s the case, why?

The world has always been a messed up place, it just gets worse by the day. Ironically enough, the Devotion I posted today was before I saw your post or the news today and how perfectly fitting it is.

We only need to focus on this moment, the right now, and our family.

I fear too many people allow news and religion to overtake them in a bad way. We should not be consumed by the news. Instead, we should be consumed with enjoying life. This is what it’s all about right here…

Ecc 2:24 There is nothing better for a man, than that he should eat and drink, and that he should make his soul enjoy good in his labour. This also I saw, that it was from the hand of God.

Go work hard, and then enjoy meal time with your family. Enjoy the fruits of your labor type of thing. Such a simply concept, one that man has done for thousands of years until the modern era. Now we are always worried about everyone else with a 24/7 news cycle.

I can pretty much guarantee, no good news will be shown on TV. Only doom and gloom, it benefits a few at the expense of the many. We cannot allow that to tear us down. When we do that, we stop focusing on family, we stop smiling and we stop allowing God to lead our thoughts.

God doesn’t want you to be sad, right?

Heck no! He wants to see a big smile on Ericka’s face! :slightly_smiling_face: When you frown, when you feel “miserable,” do you know who is smiling? Satan, (1Pe 5:8).

Concerning a counselor, you just might be surprised who you find with a little prayer and due diligence. My great friend felt similar to you, but was forced to get a lawyer. That lawyer turned out to be the person he needed in that moment. Look for Christians if you can, they may not believe as you do, and who does but you? However, they will be someone that you will feel more conformable with.

So Ericka, feel free to chat, and we’ll all rally together here and try to help.

Note: I removed your profile image for you, (option is under “preferences” in your profile). Our software grabs your gravatar avatar if you have one, and downloads it to our server. So login to your gravatar account, and there you can remove your photo which will remove it across the web. I highly recommend that.


My daughter is turning 11 today so i appologize for short reply. My texting is horrible n slow. I am running out of time to be ready for her. :hugs:
Just wanted You n Brandon to know your time was not wasted on me :heart:


Tell her we said Happy Birthday! :birthday::partying_face::balloon:


Oh Ericka…I hear you on the trust thing! Now I’m gonna tell you something and it will be one of the hardest things to do in your life (at least it was for me…and I’m still working on it every day). You need to put your FULL TRUST in God. Those words are so easily spoken, but to actually really do it - like giving Him all your fears and worries - it’s hard. I can’t do it with a lot things now, but something new will come up and once again - I need to practice that faith. I’m not sure if I’m explaining this correctly, but I pray you get what I mean.

From what you wrote, I gather that you are very concerned about other people’s souls and their eternal life. Don’t forget…God is in control. There are some that you may think will never make it, but what if they just need to go on their “journey” first and God is not ready to sprout the seed you planted. Timing is everything. I know for a fact if a person pushes too hard that it can turn that person off completely. I stick with planting little seeds of truth here and there and live my life as a Christian should - trying to lead by example I guess.

As for your partner “not cool with YHVH”. I’ve seen couples like that and it works out just fine, unless they are keeping you from your relationship with God, then that’s not good. Otherwise, keep your relationship with God and keep your relationship with your partner.
Again, God is in control. You never know when that seed may sprout!

As for the doctors - I’m with you on that one. The only way I would see a doctor is if I had exhausted all other options. But that’s me. We do natural remedies.

I like Brandon’s suggestion on praying about a counselor if you choose to see one. But for me, digging into scripture is the best counselor I’ve ever had. I always pray to God for guidance and help in understanding - and not just about scripture, but in life. Heck, the bible is our Guide Book on how to live on this earth!

I hope you and your daughter had a wonderful birthday celebration today!! And I look forward to continuing this conversation with everyone. You will be in my prayers!


Lord, Please allow Erica to see your love and care for her. In Jesus name, Amen…


Thank you so very much for sharing with me and encouragement, and taking time out for me. Your also correct and i needed to hear/read :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart: Lord Bless you always and forever In Jesus Christ Name Amen :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:


Thank you very much!! Very grateful! In Jesus Christ Name Amen!!! May Lord do the same always for you as well, in Jesus Christ name Amen :heart:


Ericka, Brandon is sooooo right. Live life today. Every day the Lord gives us a day to rejoice in his glory. I used to get so depressed listening to the news and the negative comments of many of the people around me. The bible studies and postings on this website led me back to a core belief i formed many many years ago. I try to live each day like it is my last, try to understand what my Lord wants me to do today and ignore all the worldly noise around me. Its really hard at times but trying not to embarrass myself in our Lords eyes gives me purpose and peace. I pray the Lord shows you your path and you find peace and joy in following it.


Thank you very much! Lord keep you safe, happy, n sane always In Jesus Christ Name Amen :slightly_smiling_face::blush: